You ever sleep so hard that you wake up and you don't know
where you are or even who you are? That's a really weird experience
made even weirder if you have a baby, you wake up to a baby crying
and your like wait who am I? where am I? I HAVE A BABY?
Then it all comes back to you and your heart slows down again that's kind of what going back to work from maternity leave is like. It's like your hit in the face with all this work you have to do and every once in awhile your hit with grief because your away from your baby and you
haven't had time to think about it in the last 1-30 minutes and its like WHAM you have a baby that you miss more than anything!
The good news is it gets way easier just like everything with time it becomes routine and that grief turns to a more bearable longing :)
So any mamas out there going through this, you will get through it and it will get better, your doing great! ( I hated hearing that too with my first one, but the good new is its so so true!)